r ev e ng e is sweet

e `royal_LEMBU
claudiia JEANETTE
11.11.1990
SINGLE biasexual
ROYALs

`lovess__
H I M`
my goddBRUDDERS`
my goddSISTAS`
leC Ma buT`
JESUS`
ROYALS`
e LEMBUs`
moovies`
1/3 n 2/3 rens

`temptation__
h i m` wo ai ni
~~`OP skirt~~
~~adidas shoe` ///~~
`bag dats lowlow de
~~`nice bras..=x~~
~~`finally get sick..with mc~~
~~`cut hair~~
`get new phone..
~~royals` united~~
~~`new -O-O-~~
~~`internet connection~~
~~`photos for my bd~~
~~`new wallet~~
~~`new piink op skirt~~
~~`new uniiform~~
~~`girl boxers =x~~
~~`giordano tanktops~~
`extra piercings..1..2..3..4..
~~`new kappa shoe~~
better results for ca2 n final yr
summore clothes
liquid eyeliner
Ralph Lauren parfums
wurk during dec holidaes

Friday, November 26, 2004

woke up damm frakin late as usually todae... had a damm dream dat i needed to go sch for band by 9.15.. n dat i was samm freaking late but still not wanting to get out of bed.. n abt many other things.. fraking scray lors...
den wen wake up go brush my teeth..wash face.. den open e clarinet i bought home.. den took out e h a r d x 2 reed n soke it in hot water to season it?.. den watch tv n use comp lors.. damm bored okie.. den wen it was 3sumthing den ate instant noodles.. mee-goreng.. den continue using e comp.. den also dunno how i ue until 6.30.. den papa call.. go out for dinner.. den i meet him downstairs house den walk to plaza.. wen at e interchange, sae francis n jasmine at 920 e line.. den went ahead to call out for dem.. den francis told me he saw M e L v I n J a S o N . . den i ask wer?..den he sae BukiT timAhx.. stupid question sia..dats e only place i think.. he can b seen.. also duno why i kpo so much sia.. idoit..wad e fucking hell is going through my idoitic stupid suxy mind?........................................ cant i decide correctly?... am i dat freaking hopless?... needing ppl to tell me wad e fucking hell to do?.. it suxs! it really do!!.. my brain is lyk freaking no working.. lyk one side hav stop all operations.. n only e stupid side is alive.. W a D s w R o n g ? ? ?
cant i hav an answer?..haiyo..den cum hum.. ate e fud i bought with daddy frm plaza..den use comp againz..den soon after isabel came hum.. den i let her use lors.. now she slping in her rum..so i juz take dis chance to use e comp.. den read my previos entries.. den came to 'fang-mummy.. so juz went to her blog.. saw wad she was writing to melvin.. sae 'wad abt me..serious speaking i really dun noe wad to do lor.. its lyk so long.. ohx.. i really cant think larx.. Freaking idoit me.. i do not wanna face e problem.. i wanna run away frm this freaking problem.. in no position to sae anythiing..lyk just now receiveing a msg frm cheryl saeing 'she wanna change either to a slacker if not nerd..either for some one..or wadsoever.. hais..den i still reply to her saeing..
'cheryl..why u wana change.. dun change urself for sumone or wadsoever.. b urself..not change urself for sumone.. hais..den she replied 'hais..i dunno lars.......
i am hopless..i hav dis feeling..juainna is mad with me.. i am sure she is.. just dat she didnt sae..hais..in any matter ..
I am really extremely sorry.. same to u melvin.. i really hate myself wads wrong with me or wanting to explain myself further..
really sorry..realli sorry realli sorry..really sorry..realli sorry..realli sorry..really sorry..really sorry.. to espically my 'mum..juainna..sorry for wating u time on me..e stupid freak..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry.sorry.. sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry.. sorry.. sorry.. sorry.. sorry. sorry.. sorry.. sorry.. sorry.. sorry.. sorry.. sorry.. sorry.. sorry..
a thousand hundred million n billions of dozen S O R R Y.. i guess u muz b hating me melvin.. s o r r y . . ask me wad i was thinking..next time perhaps.. i may find an answer.. sucks. it sucks..

i guess.. i still cant forget.. dat u 'lied to me.. sumthing lyk u wait for me?.. i was damm hurted wen i heard dat u stead with juainna.. ask arun.. he noes.. oh.. who am i speaking to.. u wunt read this ryte.. hmmz.. me always luking happy.. wad do u ppl noe?.. wad am i suppose to do?.. keep dat suxy mood out of me?.. i dun think so.. worry my frens?.. not a gud idea.. showing a black face where every i am?.. making everybodie in a room change dey're mood bcoz of a senseless me?.. i am not a sadist ok.. lyk wad pastor prince sae.. dun change ur face in a rum b coz sum one has a balck face.. b happy.. dun do sumthing for sumone but for urself.. e only sermon i remember n heard althought i was freaking tired.. n sick.. this is a freaking long entry.. hais.. ended..

royal_LEMBU =(

11:04 PM